Series: Hashimoto's Thyroiditis

I listened today

This entry is part 1 of 4 in the series Hashimoto's Thyroiditis

It’s a rather surreal experience to be a preacher who cannot preach. About a month ago I started noticing pain in my throat, no… in my neck.  It wasn’t a sore throat like you’d get with a cold – it was on the side, but still somewhat in the center.  I reasoned it was allergies and ignored it – like I always do.  Like most men do.  Swallowing began to hurt, coughing was uncomfortable. Sneezing was downright unbearable. I noticed a clicking in my neck when I rubbed my throat, something I started to do over and over again.  Then this week I began losing my voice… as Sunday was approaching. But still there was no sign of a cold or anything I would normally associate with a sore throat. January 2, I found myself in the doctors office. The not so tender rebuke of my loving brother-in-law ringing in my ears forced me to go. Mr family doctor was surprised to find no hint of a cold. Instead he suspects something wonky with my Thyroid. I didn’t understand everything he said, but I’ve learned more about the thyroid gland in two days than I could have ever imagined. We’re still waiting on the blood tests. Today is Sunday. I still can’t […]

Quiet please

This entry is part 2 of 4 in the series Hashimoto's Thyroiditis

Shhhh. Today my voice is slightly better, although not strong. It hurts after talking last night while bowling. I constantly feel as if I’m about to strangle on nothing at all. My run through prednisone land gave me some of my voice back – but now I’m in free fall again. It was just a five or six day cycle, and now that I’m weaned off of it, my throat has been tightening back up. Which I’m guessing means my thyroid is swelling or growing again. If I needed any proof, when I got home last night, I sneezed and nearly fell out of my chair in agony. Yup. It’s back. As it turns out, I apparently have Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis – a common enough autoimmune disease in which (for reasons nobody really knows) the body’s defenses turn on the thyroid and attempt to destroy it. As I understand it, the war being waged by myself against myself caused the thyroid to inflame and impinge upon the nerve bundle passing through it, which is responsible for voice quality. Tada: my primary presenting problem. Usually it affects women. In fact, depending on where you read, the ratio of women to men affected with Hashimoto’s is somewhere between 10:1 and 50:1. Hooray. I’m rare. […]

“If anyone thinks himself to be religious, and yet does not bridle his tongue but deceives his own heart, this man’s religion is worthless.” (James 1:26, NASB95)

The End of Apathy

This entry is part 3 of 4 in the series Hashimoto's Thyroiditis

It is the most “sinful” thing I have to say. For an incredibly long time I have struggled with cyclical bouts of intense apathy. I have always believed these bouts to be uprisings of sin within my flesh. Normally accompanied with excessive fatigue, I chastised the “laziness” that had gripped my flesh. So I’d press on till the fog lifted just a little, but I’d quietly fear its return. During these periods my thinking became even more cloudy than normal, even the simplest things slipped my mind. Out of frustration with my own memory problems I frequently joked that if I came down with Alzheimer’s disease, it would take five years for anyone to notice. It’s not funny. I often reasoned in my spirit that if I only had more faith these things would go away! But they never did. Some days I sat in my office unable to so much as move and tried desperately as I called out to God to just wake me up! He never did. During these seasons I functioned only an act of sheer will. I was depressed. I asked my doctor for antidepressants tried them for a few months to no effect and gave up on them.  Maybe I just needed to pray more. […]