Unite My Heart to Fear Your Name

Psalm 86 is profound in it’s personal application to me. Years ago on one of my first reads through the Bible I stopped stunned at verse 11. “Teach me Your way, O Lord; I will walk in Your truth; Unite my heart to fear Your name.”  Unite my heart David prayed – crying out to God with the ultimate self-revelation. He declared here to God that he wanted to love the Lord with all his heart but failed  consistently because his heart was consistently given to two or more masters. Is this not most frequently our problem? Is this not where we find ourselves too often? Let us make this day our prayer that God will slash and burn all my other masters and will himself unite my wayward and weak heart to fear him alone. Then true wisdom can begin.

I’ve been thinking about a brief history of time. No not the Stephen Hawking book, the reality of life accelerating out of our control. There is nothing more disturbing than being a father and realizing all at once that your children are growing up. I’ve recently found much truth in the whisper of life’s incredible speed in Psalm 90. Moses begs the lord:

“So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom. …O satisfy us early with thy mercy; that we may rejoice and be glad all our days.”(vv12,15 KJV).

In the span of this one day we’ll encounter Libraries, Summer Camps,and Missions trips, sundry errands, lawn mowing and last minute sprints. My children are running every which way, and this is with only three of them; a fourth is one the way in October and while I’m not overly concerned with diapers at this moment, I am already contemplating college costs.

I’ve suddenly become painfully aware of the fact that my children are growing up faster than I can handle it.
And it’s Biblical.

In the eyes of God our lives are just a vapor. You know what a vapor is right? Take some hot coffee out on the porch on a cool morning and watch the steam rise powerfully from it’s surface. The steam rises from the depths, makes a bit of a fuss, lingers for a moment and then is gone never to be remembered. From God’s perspective, that is our life. Which means that from God’s perspective the brief twenty year period I have to raise each child is less than a vapor – it’s a moment that is gone nearly as soon as it starts.

Of course folks much older than I have discovered this already and they regularly will visit young parents who are struggling with a simple, “Try to enjoy this – they’ll be gone before you know it.” (It’s tough to do that by the way when your toddler is the one screaming in the grocer store.) I’ve discovered they’re not being morose, they’re being Biblical. Their own Life has taught them the truth of its brevity. May it be that we, like Moses seek for God to give us a proper perspective of the time we have left – so that we might live life to it’s fullest for His sake. And more than that, may it be that God visits us with mercy early in life so we can enjoy it.